Preghiere Inutili

by Luke McGowan

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This album was originally written as part 1 of a rock opera entitled Cataract Morality. I lost a lot of steam after working on this for weeks and months and almost a year. It is about a nameless hero afflicted with schizophrenia who sees the world ending all around him in his delusions. When the end of the world is professed to him, it seems like a normal, or relatively normal delusion. As it was originally written as an opera of sorts, I deemed it appropriate to keep a loose, operatic structure.

This album was intended to be listened to in its entirety.

Thank you,
Luke McGowan

PS Listed below is the ordering of events as they were originally intended.

Day 1
Prelude
Revelation 20
First Movement: On the Bus
Second Movement: Before Bed
Third Movement: The Prophecy (Spoken Word)
Fourth Movement: Post Prophecy
Day 2
First Movement: A Conversation on Origin
Second Movement: The Beginning of the End
Third Movement: The Sermon at The Church of St. Dymphna
Fourth Movement: The Flooding of The Church of St. Dymphna
Postlude: Stuck in a Moment of Ecstasy

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released September 10, 2014

Phil Kenbok- vocals on Canzonetta- Damned
Zak Parinello- Upright Bass on Liberations

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Track Name: Cavatina: Schizo
As the trains pass my window in an instant of light
A perfect comparative two-dimensional fight
And the sun as it flocks to farthest of roads
An explosion of morning to soften the blow
Of my alarm as it sounds as cherubim before
And the collapse of all comfort in my head will endure
From three drunken stupors three nights in a row
I’ll take swings at my bedposts till I have nothing to show
And the trains they will pass and that instance expired
I’m not saying it’s perfect but thank god I was alive

And I’ll be alive the next time it happens

Three planes all conjoin over my head
I swear it goddammit all passengers are dead
And again the sun plays its tricks on me
A fiery explosion over urban seas
For a moment I verge on the brink of demise
At varying altitudes everyone survives
Who can really say that my mind wasn’t lost?
For a moment I swore we were double-crossed
God took those planes and told them not to fly
In an instant you’re dead and the next you’re alive

And I’ll be alive the next time you survive

I want to live
I want to die
I want to smoke till my lungs turn to fire
My brains turn to ash
My heart will explode
I want to live till I grow old
I want to see you in the morning
I want to see you lying in your grave

I want to run
I want to crawl
I want to be blissful to a fault
I want to love
I want you to hold
I want you to be there when I grow old
I want to see you in the morning
I want to see you lying in your grave

Reading from the book of Revelation 20
Track Name: Recitative: Excuses and Liberations
I am a passenger
Your name is Rosemary
You are beautiful
My soliloquy

And I will scream salutations for the first time in a while
And you watch my exaltation with a subtle smile
And I will fall in love with you

I will fall in love with you
What in the world could I do?
The world will end. This is nothing new.
I will fall in love with you

I am irrational
I am a monument
I am so nervous
I am so confident

You will whisper common courtesy back to me
I will shout I love you and you’ll fall asleep
On the bus I am in love with you

I am on the street
At my mothers house
You aren’t next to me
I will cease to shout

But I’ll remember you till the world explodes
I’ll remember you till new life won’t grow
I will stay in love with you.
I will die in love with you.
Track Name: Aria Cavatina: Prophecy or the Will to Survive
The stars are winking and twinkling
And you are awake and alone
For what should I owe this pleasure-
To measure the worth of my own?

And you will wake up in the morning
With nocturnes still echoing from trance
They’ll turn to canticle before bathing
They’ll fade in the light in a glance

The song that I wrote you is hardly enough
To revel, admire or rename as love
So if all I can do is fall through this black hole
I’ll yield optimism and fall for your soul

And my body will freeze.

I love you Rosemary but I think you must know.
I know exactly how all we love and loathe
Will blow up and cease to exist as a whole.
I will explain how we go

The lord came to me and showed me the end
With a grin on his face he said dearest friend
There is no next. No hell or heaven
Go tell the masses your information
Track Name: Continuo/Bella Canta: Damned (prelude)/Schizo (reprise)
I want to live
I want to die
I want to smoke till my lungs turn to fire
My brains turn to ash
My heart will explode
I want to live till I grow old
I want to see you in the morning
I want to see you lying in your grave

I want to run
I want to crawl
I want to be blissful to a fault
I want to love
I want you to hold
I want you to be there when I grow old
I want to see you in the morning
I want to see you lying in your grave
Track Name: Aria Cabaletta: Panic
But your alive
And I don’t want to be
All these panic attacks make my conscience bleed
Forget the pact that I told to my mom
I won’t call her when the world seems to be wrong
I’ll stay with this demon if he’ll stay with me
I’m in hell
I’m sure it’s a fact
My body stiffens with each panic attack
Every muscle I can name seizes and shakes
Every noise in the house is a fucking earthquake
I’ll stay with this demon if he’ll stay with me
I must admit
Sometimes it feels great
Knowing I have no control over my fate
The world will keep on spinning if I’m not alive
Those planes could fall from heaven and I’d most likely survive
So I’ll stay with this demon if he’ll stay with me
Track Name: Canzonetta- Damned
But I can see the sun looming in my periphery
Strength no wave can touch.
Strength I cannot see
I can feel the wind laughing in my face
Tickling my skin
Mocking my disgrace
I’m disgraced
I’m disgraced
I’m disgraced